Midgar, Gaia -- Friday Morning through to Crazy O'Clock Saturday Morning

[intraspective]

It was highly likely that, had she been back in the dorms and able to curl up against Zack, Ino would not have gone through with her hastily tossed together plan for dealing with her fears about Jenova.

She wasn’t sure, yet, if it was fortunate or unfortunate that they were in the cabins. After mulling over her options—revisiting them thanks to Master Skywalker agreeing with her gut feeling of ‘that should be dealt with’—for a few hours, then a few hours of restless sleep, Ino was up bright and early.

And booking a portal to Midgar. For one.

As she confirmed the time Ino wondered, a bit guiltily, if she ought to tell Zack. She be pissed off if someone went to herworld without her to deal with an issue. Wrinkling her nose as she hung up on the Portalocity operator, Ino decided that it didn’t really matter. If he was mad, she’d deal with it.

But dealing with something else came first. Fear. Ino studied what clothing she’d brought from her room to the cabins, careful to stay quiet so that no one would wake up, and eventually decided on an outfit that was very very pink. The top was a bit frilly, even. She eyed the ribbon on the sleeves before shrugging. Fighting was possible in it—that was what mattered the most. And wearing the bright colour made her smile slightly. Tossing her hair back in a ponytail, she made certain she had her potions and ethers before wriggling on her armlet and taking off for the weapons locker.

Less than fifteen minutes later she was standing a ways outside Midgar and staring at it with wide eyes. Attempting to convince herself to move towards it. Yes, she could spend her weekend wandering around the wastelands if she was very very careful and ran the hell away from most of the monsters that she didn't recognize but… that would rather defeat the purpose.

So. That left Ino to convince herself that, yes, moving forward was a good idea. Reno had told her that nothing really bad was going to happen for a while longer—her guess was years, but she couldn't be certain of that—which meant, logically, that if she went into the city nothing would happen to her. Even if Jenova was there. (Or so she thought.)

Logic didn't give much of a damn for her feelings though and Ino's feelings were of the opinion that going anywhere ever near Jenova was the stupidest thing ever. She was going to do it anyway. One step forward. And then another. Her jaw set and eyes narrowed in irritation with herself. Coward, coward, coward—if she was this scared, then how would she manage to do anything to help?

Fear, she decided, sucked. It made her stomach twist, her limps shake, and her she had to work to keep her breathing steady. It was easier when she pretended, that this was a mission. Scared or not, on a mission you had to keep moving and get it done.

The slums were much the same as she'd remembered them--this time in the early morning rather than at night but it was very much... people waking up, getting about their lives. Monsters here and there that she gleefully took on. Fighting monsters means she didn't have to think. Meant she didn't have to care. Meant all she had to do was focus on fighting and not on the fact that she knew exactly where she really had to go and didn't want to.

For a few hours, it was more than enough that she was in the slums. Still breathing. Fighting. And doing some exploring without Zack. Nimble feet, nimble hands, ducking in and out of the worst places in town. She spent a while in Wall Market, but more time looking for Hell Houses. (Ino's priorities lay with distraction and monsters were a better one at the moment than shopping.)

Her skin felt tight, her shoulders stiff. She'd picked up a few small tears in her clothing during her fights, but she was still moving—potions to take care of any injury—and more importantly, still winning.

The day crawled on and by four in the afternoon, she'd made it above the plate. Tracking down food, first, Ino then went about more exploring. If she kept moving then nothing could get her—never mind that nothing seemed to be after her in the first place—and Ino was certain that if she sat still for long that she'd be sick. The fear wasn't going away. If anything it got stronger.

But she could move through it. That counted as an accomplishment and a little more confident, a little more reckless, Ino flung herself into the life of Midgar and tried to convince herself that nothing was going to hurt her and that Jenova wasn't lurking in wait for her.

Hours flew past. Day-to-evening-to-night and Ino was tired and still moving and still fighting and there were periods now where she was lonely because only her fear kept her company and this wasn't her home, any of them, and what Ino really wanted was a hug.

More monsters sufficed. For hours longer. A break here and there to wander into a place to get something to drink and nibble on, though she wasn't hungry, and then the rest of her time spent dealing with her fear by fighting anything she found. And winning. Sometimes barely, a few she'd had to run away from when they'd ganged up on her, but there were enough victories to make her happy.

And enough exhaustion to make her a bit giddy with reckless enthusiasm that was far more comfortable, in her opinion, than the fear that dragged at her mind, her concentration, her arms and legs, if she let herself think.

So Ino didn't bother to think, gave herself permission to just enjoy the exhilaration that came from defying, in her mind, her own fears.

That was why, when she wound up calling Zack, Ino was laughing. Because Ino was stupidly tired and it was either laugh or cry and hilarity was better than giving up and admitting that she was still scared.

It was half past two Saturday morning.

[NFB due to distance. World hopping done with permission. For that boy she's calling.]

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[puppy_fair]

"Good. Maybe go and hang around there? Or get some coffee on Loveless Avenue so that you're not falling asleep in the water before I even get there. We can crash in my room in the ShinRa building, again."

[intraspective]

"No sleep," she corrected mutinously. "But I can find the fountain." Duh.

It was that way! She was going to head that way.

And hang up on him by accident, oops?

[puppy_fair]

Zack just... sighed, and dialled Portalocity while he was pulling on clothing.

Yeah, he'd catch up. Oh, Ino.

[intraspective]

She kinda figured he'd gotten tired or something and wandered off! Totally not her fault. Besides, then there were monsters and she had to fight so talking on the phone would've been silly anyway!

Either way, when she got to the fountain she'd also found a hot chocolate and was humming to herself as she eyed the water.

Water would totally keep her awake, wouldn't it? She would have to consider that very thoughtfully. And poke at the water, which was cold.

[puppy_fair]

Zack was never, ever going to tell Ino just how much of a hassle it really was to get himself ready to haul butt to what was practically smack-dab the middle of Midgar. It had involved a lot of attempting to politely explain to Portalocity employees that he needed that portal for Right Now, and then some tripping around the island to get to the weapons locker for his sword, and had she ever tried to pull on armor in the dark while half asleep?

Yeah.

"Morning," he said, offering her a light smile as he made his way into the square. One thing could be said for upper-plate Midgar at night, at least. It was always awake. Especially so close to Loveless Avenue.

It was without another word that he sat down beside her on the edge of the fountain and pulled her into a hug.

[intraspective]

Hugs were nice! Ino hadn't been expecting one, more concerned about weighing the pros and cons of 'falling' in the fountain, and she made a squeaky sound of surprise as he hugged her and she just barely managed to keep from spilling her hot chocolate all over him. Not to mention the fact that, in hugging her, he'd be able to tell just how tense she was despite her wide-eyed good humoured demeanour.

Ino blinked up at him. "You're here!"

Yes, yes he was.

"See?" she added, holding out an arm for inspection. "I'm not hurt."

She was a bit dirty, rather exhausted, and her clothing had a few tears in it. But she really wasn't physically hurt, no.

[puppy_fair]

"You sound tired," Zack pointed out, frowning lightly. Yes, he could feel how tense she was. And he wasn't about to let go, either. "How long have you been running around here, Ino?"

[intraspective]

She wriggled in his arms but made no other attempt to get away.

"Not tired," she insisted. "And--since sixish?"

Sixish yesterday morning, please note. Ino just offered him a smile. It was all fine!

[puppy_fair]

"Six this afternoon?"

Look, it was wishful thinking.

"You kind of look like you've been run over by a bus. Are you sure you don't want sleep right now?"

[intraspective]

She shook her head. "I won't sleep very well anyway."

At this point, really, she would if she relaxed.

[puppy_fair]

Zack sighed and gave a tired little nod of his own, then.

"That's fine." A pause. A sideways glance her way for a moment before pulling her a little closer. "So... Is there any reason in particular why you decided to take off for Midgar on your own?"

[intraspective]

He got her snuggling against him, yes.

"Master Skywalker said it'd be a good idea," Ino said, though he hadn't exactly told her to haul off and do it this way. "That avoiding it was stupid."

[puppy_fair]

Zack was chewing on his lip, now.

"Avoiding...?"

Maybe if he hedged in around the edges enough, he'd be able to figure out just what Master Skywalker didn't want Ino to avoid. He had a guess, but... Still.

[intraspective]

"Fear," she said mildly. "I don't want to talk about it."

Not here. Not on Turks' turf.

[puppy_fair]

Sector 8 was definitely not the place to be if you didn't want to chance being overheard by sneaky individuals in black suits, this was true. Zack nodded a little, and then he glanced toward Loveless Ave.

"Want to do something, then? Kunsel says there are late-night showings of Loveless all this month, or we could hit up a coffee shop, or actually just get something to eat..."

He wasn't going to suggest they go hunting monsters. She looked too tired to hunt monsters. It scared him a little.

[intraspective]

"I could maybe eat," she said thoughtfully. "I didn't much, when I was alone."

Because fear had a way of tying her stomach up and making her nauseous if she ate.

"You're here though, so it might be different." Zack was the safest place she knew of.

[puppy_fair]

Zack wasn't going to say it out loud, but it was kind of nice, knowing that his presence made some sort of difference.

"Come on," he said, reaching for her hand and pulling himself to his feet. "There's got to be a place open all night for food somewhere around here. ShinRa never sleeps, after all."

... That statement was far more creepy than Zack was even vaguely aware of.

[intraspective]

Ino clung to his hand, not that she'd admit it, and sipped at her hot chocolate. It was warm and she was tired so that was nice to have.

Not as nice as his presence though. "Maybe they should," Ino answered, not caring if that made much sense at all. "Then they'd feel better."

Or something. Maybe she ought to take her own advice?

[puppy_fair]

"Sleep is usually pretty good for people in general," Zack said, giving her a wry little smile. "I happen to be a fan of it, too."

Big fan. Zack slept pretty often! At least a few times a week, anyhow. He'd heard somewhere that it was good for him, or something.

"So, pick a direction," he offered. He suspected that if she did, it would be away from the ShinRa building. And he wouldn't say anything if it was, but at least it would kind of... cement his suspicions some.

[intraspective]

Really, it shouldn't be a surprise that she was going to tug him away from there, once she'd deliberated over her hot chocolate and tried to decide if she could remember where a place was that might still be open.

So: this way. It was as good as any other and definitely not towards the ShinRa building.

"Sorry," she said, casting a glance at him. "I woke you up."

[puppy_fair]

See? Zack had so called that.

"I don't mind," he replied, smiling faintly. "I don't have any classes or anything until Monday, and I was starting to miss this place."

Which meant that no, there still weren't any new missions waiting for him. What was up with that? Maybe he'd check in sometime over the weekend and demand something to do.

"How long were you looking at staying?"

[intraspective]

Until she stopped being afraid?

Ino gave that question a noncommittal shrug. "I've got clinic on Monday."

[puppy_fair]

Well, at least that was... something.

"And any idea where you're going to sleep, this weekend?"

Look, she had to sleep sooner or later. Right?

[intraspective]

"Hadn't really thought 'bout it," she admitted.

Planning was not a strong point in this situation, was Zack getting that?

"Figured maybe wander out of the city."

[puppy_fair]

"And sleep in the wastelands?"

Zack's tone probably indicated loud and clear just what his thoughts about that idea were.

"No, we'll get a place somewhere, if you don't want to crash in my room. You're not sleeping out there with the hounds and Cactuars and who knows what else."