Room 504, Saturday Noonish

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After training with Liir, which la, is still in progress, Ino had had another shower and was now puttering around her room and fussing with her plants.

She was debating going out. After all she did tend to go see A.J. often on Sundays but...

Ugh. Ino just didn't feel like being social today, really. Nonetheless, she left the door open a bit.

[Expecting one, but otherwise entirely open as well!]

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Ino wasn't sure if the sudden lack of emotion was a good thing or not, but the answer was definitely...

Well. The most similar to hers.

"We're taught that," she said, flopping on her bed. "To think like that, because they don't matter except that they're dangerous to us. Apparently though, that way of thinking is... bad." Dark eyes. "By general consensus around here."

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"Targets," Triela repeated, shaking her head. "Thinking of them any other way means that I'm making the decision about whether to kill them or not."

Her voice grew softer, "I'm too dangerous to do that."

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"Too dangerous for 'empathy'," with the air-quotes, "well, I don't think that's a problem. Do you?"

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"Nope," Triela answered easily with a shake of her head. "It's better that way, really. I mean, even if I could care I'm sure I wouldn't want to. What does that get you anyway? Besides too hesitant to do what needs doing, I mean."

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"That's what I think," Ino said. "You can't just go 'round caring 'bout the people you're going to kill--who'd do that? You'd go crazy--but apparently not caring 'bout them is, like, worse? I really don't get it."

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"I wonder," Triela's slim finger rose up to tap her chin in thought, "If the people who think that have ever killed anyone. Because I can't see how someone could think that if they had."

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"Oh, that'd be too easy. But Cable-san thinks that, though he's a lot less disproving of it on the whole, and so does Deadpool-san--he says that I've got psychopathic tendencies--and Lieutenant Kerrigan's the one that really thinks it's messed up what I think. So, yeah," Ino twisted around on her bed to lay on her stomach, "I'd say they've killed things."

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"Huh," Triela frowned. "I would have thought all of them would understand this better. Sometimes you have to kill people, it's the only way. And there's no point feeling bad about that."

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"But apparently it's okay kill them--if you feel bad about it afterwords, or something. Which... makes no sense at all. I don't get it. No one could live properly that way."

Ino shrugged, legs kicking at the air slightly. "Come sit down, if you want. The Lieutenant's also a lot upset 'bout my age, as if that really makes a difference."

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"Weird," Triela sat down as invited, still frowning. "I'm not surprised by you teaching bears to fight, but I am surprised by the fact that people think that way."

"I guess Fandom hasn't prepared me for everything."

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"Like, if it was civilians saying that, it'd be one thing," Ino said. "But it's not, and that's where I'm confused."

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"Well," Triela shrugged easily, "I think you're right. You can't keep doing what has to be done if you feel sorry about it all the time."

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"That does make me feel better," Ino admitted. "Finding someone that agrees with me, I mean. Because I don't think the way I think is weird, at all."

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"Maybe," Triela tapped her chin slowly, "It's because they're trying to decide who deserves to die? Maybe it's just what happens if you try to pick targets and kill targets at the same time."

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"Maybe," she didn't sound convinced though. "Maybe that's it. But who knows? Perhaps you've gotta be giving the orders for you to feel bad about it or something."

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"So is that what's been bothering you? All these people who seem to think you're wrong for doing what you've gotta do?"

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"Well, that," she said. "And had a bad conversation with someone 'bout the way people judge you, and we fought, and I don't know if we're still talking or not, but I didn't say anything that I wasn't thinking so... I'm sorry, but not? I told the truth as I saw it."

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"Sometimes," the snorted response had a sort of sad amused quality to it, "People don't really want to know what you think. Even if they say they do."

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"And sometimes," Ino rolled her eyes, "they're just going to have to deal with it. Seriously. I'm the worst person to try constantly moping around. A bit, sure, whatever, everyone has bad days but it was getting to be all the time, so I just snapped."

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"Yeah," Triela laughed suddenly, "I bet you did. You're not really the most subtle person I've met, you know."

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"There's no point in beating around a bush," she said. "So I don't bother. Nothing wrong with that, from my point of view."

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"You're blunt," Triela grinned. "You remind me of Claes."

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"That's a good thing, hopefully?" Ino smiled. "And I can do subtle, no girl gets out of Suzume-sensei's class without knowing at least a bit of that, but seriously, I'd rather just say it straight out."

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"Claes is my roommate back home, and, yeah, it's a good thing." With a nod Triela added, "And I think your way's probably better most of the time. At least that way no one's confused, right?"

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That got a lighter smile. "Well, some people find the truth confusing anyway, you know. But it's easier, even if it hurts people. Because then you don't have to keep track of a lie."